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Promise
02:01
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I made a promise to myself that I would not carry on
‘cause what’s the point, I cannot beat this juggernaut
I feel abused, I feel like not coming back from this walk
I think I’m breaking up, I think I’m breaking up
It’s happened before, and it’s happening again
I need some support ‘cause I’m tearing at my skin
No one will help me or share this suffering
Where did you go? The rosebud and crow?
The trauma won’t fade, it’ll never outgrow
The space has thickened and it’s gonna choke
These pills are no good, the phone calls don’t help
I can’t talk to strangers to tame my mental health
Cruelty has risen up in everyone
Feel this is the end, find my own way out
Lost all of my friends and I’m not quite sure how
‘Be kind to yourself’ when you’re lost in the crowd
‘Be kind to yourself’ when you’re lost in the crowd
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Motions
02:28
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A year in the life of hiding out of your sight
And I am tired of my voice when I cry
I am stronger than this, but I just want to quit
And I’ve broken every promise I made
“Tom, lift your mind from the pavements
And the notes that you’ve left them
On how you plan to be back soon
Your life is constantly changing
The pain is withdrawing
Possibility; it’s yours to pull through”
There are chances to die, I’ve not made up my mind
Your presence has me terrified
‘cause I am selfish and mute, I am horrible too
And my sorrow and self-pity is cruel
“Tom, leave your noose on the doorstep
And the knots in your heart wretch
‘cause you’re never coming back here again
Your life is constantly changing
It’s a positive motion”
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Summer
03:09
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Recollecting all of my summer days
So I can set them ablaze
No one needs to hear about them anyway
Surfaced strain, my pain, it’s an ongoing thing
I know you’ll understand but I can’t
Let you in, or risk myself imploding
Drawing out a year with an unblemished tear
Do I lose or forget, am I marionette
When my mental state is eroding
Calling over again
With no real intent
But to calm down
Am I calm now?
I am trying hard today
I am staying here today
No hurt to appropriate
Keeping all of myself safe
“We’re so glad you’re making progress
We know it’s tough to not feel misread
Summer’s done so don’t feel hated
We care for you and that’s what matters
We know you’re strong to make it through this
Just do your best, you are a good person
Make mistakes, so long as you stay safe”
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Grief
03:18
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I wonder if my memories have cursed me from afar
All I think of are those helpless days waiting for you to fall apart
I never wanted loneliness from you
I wanted a bit more time
I never wanted emptiness
I wanted you to know that you’re loved, that’s all
I wonder if you’d meant to be distant from your thoughts
To keep all of your darkest dreams from reaching us at all
You never wanted anything from me
You just wanted peace of mind
You never wanted empathy
You wanted to take your life
So you took your life
And it took mine
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5. |
31/12
03:07
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There’s nothing to hear
I’ll tremble back home
And rest on the empty
Memos I own
Collecting on memories
is something to do
As all hands begin to
Turn towards you
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